Snarking in the water | 2001-02-09 | . | |||||||
then / after
I never wanted anything before, not for a very long time. But I want this. Funny how wants take precedence over needs, we all want something, but we rarely go after what we need instead. But the want cannot be attained, until the necessity has been acheived, and I want him. What a horrible predicament I would be in, that we would all be in, if our shells were the opposite of our minds. Though I suppose for some, it would be a blessing in disguise, ignorance is bliss after all. And I was quite blissful 13 years ago, such a shame that moving had to change that, yet at the same time I'd be a totally different person if I had never left. Would that have been a good thing though? I suppose there are pros and cons to the argument, but which one would win? Though that's not a question like in one of my previous entries, this isn't about the left or right half of me, it's about person I could have, or should have been. Though if my shell were different would I be inherently different as well? Would I be interested in what I'm studying now? It's friends who have contributed to the person I've become now, but is that good enough? Funny how when I needed things, the "Family" weren't there to play their roles, but now that I don't, I get blamed for not being receptive. |
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